Loving her ...........

It is not often when we meet someone for the first time and feel we had known the person for years before. However, this is the strange feeling that I am getting whenever I am in conversation with her. I recently met her through my blog about a week and a half ago. She is a blogger herself. I must say she is a very simple person with a very big heart. Reading this is probably making her light brown cheeks blush. I had noticed from our conversations, we had shared many similarities especially in character and likings. She is currently furthering her education abroad and her web cam is the only secret window that I have to admire her beauty.

Well most of you are probably thinking that I had finally met the right girl in life. However, I must admit I had that same hope until she told me that she is already in love with someone else. You might also be thinking that the feeling that I have for her is infatuation and not love. In most cases of love, I would agree with the statement that if love comes too fast it’s probably infatuation. However when it comes to her, I feel so different, a feeling that I have been with her in the past. Believing in the concept of reincarnation, I know that the soul has the ability to remember the people or places that it was in contact with before. If this concept is really true, why is it that she does not remember me or my love?

I know it is ethically wrong to love someone else’s girl friend .Well the truth is haven’t all great love been one sided in nature. I don’t wish to wreck her relationship but I would lie to myself by telling her that I am her friend knowing clearly that I am in love with her. So I somehow managed to express my feelings to her. However, though knowing that I love her a lot, she can’t accept my love. At this point of time I know many would have abandoned the sinking ship but I decided to stay even though she doesn’t love me, because I believe in my love for her will always be true. Unfortunately, ever since I told her this truth, our relationship was never the same as before. I feel as though she is pushing me away and not being her true self around me anymore. I know that she is not doing this to protect herself and her love for her boyfriend, but she is doing this so that I don’t get hurt from loving her. This very thought will tell you the reason I am so in love with her.

Well, a great man uttered this, do not ask a person in love the meaning of love; ask the person who had lost his love its true meaning. I had lost my love and I can tell you that love is all about giving and not expecting anything in return. Every girl has the right to be loved. I hope that people don’t change this beautiful feeling that they feel towards another just because the other can’t see the beauty that it holds. Don’t get me wrong, I am not blaming her for not returning the love. All I am asking her to do is to accept my love and do not treat me as if she is unaware that I am in love with her. If she had accepted love from her parents, friends and pet, why can’t she do the same for me in this no name relationship. I didn’t choose to love her…. that is the fact that most of you don’t know…. the feeling just came and now I am getting punished for that feeling.What is certain in life is that, it is very difficult to find a person that will equally love you back but that shouldn’t stop you from loving.

If you have any suggestion, what a person must do if the person he or she loves, is in a relationship, kindly share your thoughts or experiences .